August 2010
Today was interesting.
At like, midnight I wrote the weirdest possible note to my friend. xD Don’t even remember anything I did this morning, got to school and the lights were off in the band hall for some reason. Finished up some labs in Chemistry, watched a video about why civilizations aren’t equal in World History, then got my books in Algebra. Then in band today, I got called out for being a good...
Today was a pretty good day overall,
school was good, I just could not stay awake during English for some reason. I fell asleep studying after school, then went to rehearsal. We learned the visuals for the first movement! Yes! :D Now back to homework. D:
Film
is going to take up a lot more time than I thought it would. :o We have to have 5 hours of work for every minute. But oh well! It’ll be fun at least. >:D
I set a cookie on fire today.
It was so freaking epic. Hahaha, there was just a cookie, and then a pillar of fire on top of it. Made my day. xD
First football game!
We lost. :( But it was still super fun! Low brass kept rushing in the stands, and it was pissing me off by the end of the game. We actually marched the first movement, and I think I did amazing! >:D I practically FORCED Jessica to do the motions in the stands. xD Surprisingly, I still have my voice. :o I’m in such a good mood, this weekend has been amazing, and I have a really good...
I love it when people
say they care, and then don’t act like it. No just kidding I absolutely hate it. I just don’t see why they would constantly fuck with you like that.
I FEEL SO FUCKING AMAZING!
I’ve got everything sorted out now. I feel SOOO good! I feel so amazing now! And I found out like, 3 girls like me, and that made me feel really good. xD THE PEP RALLY WAS AMAZING. OH MY GOD :DDD And there’s a football game TOMORROW! >:D
It's going to take longer than I thought
to get you out of my head. God dammit.
LAUREN OF COURSE LAUREN PURSER BECAUSE I LOVE HER YEA
I'm about to shave for the first time.
Oh shit.
Today was absolutely amazing.
I feel so much better, I’m not super confused about everything, I actually know what the fuck is going on, I’m getting so much better at the marching drill, and we have a football game on Saturday! >:D
I seem to get
my most emotional and thoughtful at night. I think I may be a werewolf.
Oh my God,
I really love my friends sometimes. I got on Facebook, and I have 12 notifications of some of my friends just being completely gay on my wall. Made my fucking day. xD
Oh God I felt amazing
today. Except for 3rd period, and I’m not really sure why…BUT. At band, I was in a terrific mood the whole time, and it was about 80 degrees. I was SO happy! I think I did really good on the drill too, so that makes me feel a bunch better. And we learned into the second movement, fuck yes. >:D
Someone needs to keep me up tomorrow.
Er…today. I’ve been up waiting for my dad to get back with school supplies, and then I’ll have to get everything organized. I think I’m also getting my emotions sorted out. I don’t know, I thought I was few days ago and then I just started bawling today. I think I may be bipolar just like my mom… That’s going to bite me in the ass even worse someday if I...
I want to go to sleep
and not wake up. Because school sucks and I can’t concentrate for shit. I keep getting headaches, and then I have to go band after in like, 73295732 degree weather. Ugh, I feel sick.
I just cried.
Hard. Now I’m moving on to homework and shower, let’s see if I’m up to eating tonight..
Things always seem
to go from good to bad, why not from bad to good?
God,
I’m so weird. I don’t get why people talk to me. xD
BAND!
We the band finally finished the first movement! I kind of sucked at it. :( Oh well! I’ll get it. >:D I feel so much better after band, it kept my mind off of a bunch of issues. I DO have a bunch of tar in my shoes from the field, however. :o I have an absolutely amazing feeling about this Saturday’s game, the Owls will destroy the other team, and MOB is going to do great at...
Avatar's coming back to theaters.
I need to see it.
I was eating pizza rolls,
reached down for another one, but there wasn’t another one. I don’t think I’ve ever been so dissapointed in my entire life. xD
I need another charity
I know that everyone is working so hard on “Permits for Marc”, but now I need another one. I’m not sure what to call it…maybe something like, “Buy shit for Marc” or “Help Marc out by getting him like, $100 bucks he doesn’t have” ONCE AGAIN, it’s for a noble cause. Children the world over will benefit. Not really, but still. :D
So the more thoughts I put in here
the better I feel. I’ve realized I almost always keep everything bottled up, and maybe that’s one of the reasons I’m always so upset. I’ve been feeling better, but there’s still a bunch of stuff in my head, so I’m sorry people who are following me, you may get a bunch of notifications. DX
I hate knowing
that almost all of my closest friends are a grade older than me, and that in my Senior year I won’t have any of them with me.
First day of school
as a Sophomore was alright. I couldn’t really enjoy it, or anything. I’ve got so much running through my head right now I can barely concentrate on writing this. I’ve had a headache all day, a stomach ache, I was tired, and couldn’t concentrate on ANYTHING for more than 5 minutes. The only reason today wasn’t absolutely awful was because I got to see a bunch of my...
I require
my permit. By November 30. So, you know, if you want to start a charity like “Permits for Marc”, go ahead. Cause it’s kind of important. :D
My day
Went from playing Halo Wars, to studying, to planning stuff, back to studying, to Facebook, and then to TV. Why.
I've decided
That what upsets me the most is seeing the ones I care most for suffer.
It's upsetting
That people can treat me bad, and not even care enough to realize it. DX Oh well, I guess there’s no real point in worrying myself over it if they don’t even care. :o I’m in a much better mood today! I found out some color guard girl likes me, and that helped. hahaha, I guess we’ll just see how today goes.
I love the feeling of waking up
after an absolutely amazing dream, and thinking it’s real when you wake up. BUT. After like, 5 seconds you realize it wasn’t real, and that sucks. xD
I want to be happy.
And I hate that I can’t be. I know I’ve got friends, and I know that people care. I just don’t believe it, if that makes sense. I feel like I’ll never believe it, no matter what happens. I just can’t accept the fact that life is different now because it doesn’t feel different because of how messed up I am, and I fucking hate myself for it. I feel pathetic, and...
Everyone always thinks
that I’m the most optimistic person in the world. It’s not true. Over half the time I’m in my room super depressed not wanting to talk to anyone. Then again, no one ever really wants to talk to me. I know half the shit I say about me isn’t true, but it’s how I feel and I can’t help that. It’s just how I grew up. I grew up with no friends, no one liked me...
My future
Surprisingly, I spend a lot of time thinking about this. I love my country, and I would give my life for her in an instant. So obviously, I want to fight in the military. Not only that, I want to go into Special Forces, I want to be able to make more of a difference than the ordinary soldier. But I’m scared. I don’t want to admit it, but it would be so easy for me to die. It...
Yesterday
Was almost perfect. :o I woke up, went to a rehearsal for band, and that went pretty well. After that I hung out with one of my best friends Evanne for pretty much half the day, which was absolutely amazing. Then we went back to school for the show off and all the seniors got their letterman jackets. After that I hung out with Keerigan, Chris, Ryder, and Becka for a bit. THEN I went BACK to the...
